"When Ants and Nails Disintegrated My Head" by Annie Blake

When Ants and Nails Disintegrated My Head

/ infinitesimal / thorns kept his mind from falling apart / the nails off his limbs /
because instead of a serving table which walks on arms and legs / i tried to keep my soul
round in the middle of my body until i slept / a small string of spiders
like a necklace / but i hadn’t realized the classroom walls were fully decorated
and there was no longer any room for her / for it was my mother’s body that fell away
and gazelled into the sky /
/ the hanged woman returned / kissed me twice / because judas was once / and eve washed
and hung up all her lace collars to dry / the wind walked and like crescent moons / her holy
body and her wings / for to protect my throat / she rinses through the clouds and makes
them bridal white / spiritus sanctus / she told me stories at school / so i would no longer be so
lonely /
/ the loops of the rug as infinite as the sea / zachary kissed me / for god remembers
everything / but canada is so idyllic / anne of green gables / is to be in the dead garden /
/ and i stretched out my body / for i wanted to escape this meat body / rodin’s female centaur
then chiron / healers can sew holes only if they are themselves full of them / my mother /
bark sarcophagus / leaves heartless / raw hallowed pigeons / so when my great grandmother
died / i egressed out of my mother’s front door and stood on her slate porch to mourn / i the
blood and one day i will deep-baste the host / for the bed posts will knock and the child / will
fly in the lee like the wind /

Annie Blake

Annie Blake (BTeach, GDipEd) is a divergent thinker, wife, and mother of five children. She commenced school as an EAL student and was raised in and continues to live in a multicultural and industrial location in the west of Melbourne. Her research aims to exfoliate branches of psychoanalysis. She enjoys experimenting with Blanco’s Symmetrical and Asymmetrical Logic to explore consciousness and the surreal and phantasmagorical nature of unconscious material. Her work is best understood when interpreted like dreams. She is a member of the C.G. Jung Society of Melbourne, Australia. You can visit her on annieblakethegatherer.blogspot.com.au and https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100009445206990.

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